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June 9, 2014 I never really saw myself falling in love. When I met you, I knew I liked you, I knew we would be great together, but…love? It was something that existed in fairytales, not a rural town with one supermarket. Growing up I favored cities, and the magic they created, yet somehow I got trapped in a one-horse town known for its affinity for cows. Yup, cows. That’s what everyone talked about. Except you; you talked about life, about dreams and about the world. Maybe that’s why I had to get to know you; maybe that’s why we went together so well. When we met we were just kids in middle school, crazy and never thinking of the consequences, and now, now we are all grown-up with those things they call responsibilities. But, I don’t care about all my responsibilities, because I know you’re there, no matter what at the end of the day.
Chapter One Sweetheart, 15, 2014 December
I wrote in my journal when I realized I had fallen in love with you, my boyfriend. Now, I know what you’re thinking, seriously? That’s so sweet, but isn’t that a little cheesy? Yeah. It is. That’s how I am. And as you know, I write what I feel. I never let my words lie. That was about 2 months before the accident that changed all of our lives. Two months…it seemed like a day, the time flew by when I was with you, no matter where we were, no matter what we were doing. I tried to tell you, but I couldn’t make the words come out. I didn’t know how you would take it, and I didn’t want to say it and then want to take it back. So, I shut my mouth and just had the most amazing summer I could have ever asked for. I wish I could see your face right now. I know I never let you read anything I wrote, and you never stopped asking. My poetry was mine, and my stories were mine, and the words that came out in little Times New Roman font…well, those words were mine. And everything that was mine was yours, but I guess I was always a little scared that you wouldn’t like my writing, or it would change your view of me. I'm sorry. I know it’s a little late for apologies, but I am going to apologize anyway. Sweetheart, I should have let you read every damn poem I wrote, every last line, every word, every break…I really am sorry. So, like I was saying. Two months, it sounds like a lot, but after everything, it feels like I blinked once and then there were flashing lights, and screaming sirens. That night changed everything…except the fact that I love you. I miss you, catch you on the flipside.
Love Always, Your Girl.
Chapter Two August 21, 2014 The bright lights hurt my eyes. I heard someone crying, but I didn’t know who it was, or why they were crying. I tried so hard to say something, but my throat hurt, and the words just wouldn’t come, I felt helpless, which was something I hated. Then, I heard my name, clear as a bell. “Destiny?” Someone grabbed my hand, and the light was so bright I could only make out a silhouette. They tightened their grip, yelled something about a doctor, and the darkness grabbed me and pulled me back. I opened my eyes, and saw flowers. Like, there were a lot of flowers. There were red flowers, purple flowers, blue flowers, green flowers, and that was just in my line of vision. It kind of made me scared to look around. “She’s awake!” I jumped, and forced myself to look around. There was about six or seven people in my room, and I knew…none of them. The woman closest to me smiled and hugged me with tears in her eyes. “I’m sorry, but…who are you?” The words came out, I didn’t mean to say them, and instantly wished I hadn’t. I watched everyone in the room exchanges looks. You know what looks I’m talking about, the look that people give each other right in front of someone like they can’t see or something. Talk about aggravating, who did these people think they were? The woman who had hugged me looked so sad. “You don’t know who we are?” She asked it like there was some chance I was messing with her. “I’m sorry…should I?” I looked from her to each person, who was now standing awkwardly; looking at each other, silently asking what to do.
“Sweetie, what is the last thing you remember?” Her eyes; which were a pure crystalline blue, were filled with tears. I really didn’t want this lady to cry, but what could I do? I thought about her question, and realized I didn’t know how to answer. What was the last thing I remembered?
August 11, 2014 “Bombs away!” Jake yelled and jumped off the cliff into the freezing cold spring that had become the gang’s private hangout for the summer. I laughed and squealed as water crashed over my head. “You’re crazy!” My best friend Dahlia tried to scramble away as her boyfriend of six months, Adam, reached for her ankles. “Hey babe?” Jake was standing on a rock in front of me with his hand extended. “No way. I told you, no water. Nope, not happening.” I firmly pushed his hand away. It was way too cold, and…let’s face it, I was way too scared to jump like him and Adam did. “Babe! Please, please jump with me. I promise, it’ll be fun. Pleasseeee?” Jake put on his pouty face which he knew I couldn’t turn down and pulled me up into a tight embrace. “Pretty please? For me?” He was whining and we both knew he would get his way. I laughed and pushed him away feebly. “Fine…but not too high…like, that rock over there.” I pointed and gave him a little kiss on the cheek. He laughed and pulled me up the little ledge and onto the rock. Standing up there, I didn’t even want to think about jumping. Jake put his hands on my hips and whispered in my ear. “Remember, I'm right here.” “I know.” I was shaking, but I took a deep breath, Jake took a step back, and we jumped. The feeling was like, falling, but it felt good, it really did. When we hit the water I couldn’t think. The pressure was so unexpected and it was so COLD. I couldn’t pull myself up; I panicked and sucked in, and promptly choked on water. Suddenly I was being pulled to the surface, and when my head was above the surface I choked and sputtered.
“Babe, are you okay?” Jake sounded kind of frantic. “I'm…fine…just…get…me….out.” I managed to choke out. Jake pulled me up to shore and I tried to get the last of the water out of my lungs. “Oh my god Jake, what are you trying to do, kill her?” Dahlia was practically hysterical, pushing him out of the way, “Des, are you okay? My god, please be okay, we’re going to New Jersey next weekend!” I had to laugh, Dahlia is such a character, no one I know could ever replace her, and of course she was thinking of our trip to New Jersey. “I'm fine. Jesus, okay so never doing that again- ever.” I pushed myself to a sitting position and looked up at the three pairs of concerned eyes. “Adam, are you crying? Aw, you big softie!” “Shut up Des, you scared the shit out of me.” He turned red, and Dahlia was laughing at him. “See, he has a heart, you just have to pretend to die to get him to give any emotion.” She laughed and poked him playfully. The only one who wasn’t laughing, I noticed, was Jake. He was staring at me, with a look I couldn’t quite place. “Hey babe, are you okay?” I tried to keep my voice light. He just kept looking at me. “Sweetie?” “Um, yeah. Are you okay? I'm fine. I didn’t just almost drown…I'm so sorry Des, I shouldn’t have made you jump with me, I'm really sorry.” He sounded so sad, it made my heart hurt. “No biggie, I'm fine. Really, let’s go get some lunch or something, you know, away from water.” I smiled to let him know I was fine, and I saw him force a smile and nod. “Yeah, okay. Let’s get some food!” Him and Adam bumped fists and Dahlia jumped up to grab the towels. I sat where I was, still reeling. Looking up I saw Jake looking at me with a concerned look on his face, again I smiled to let him know I was okay. I stood slowly ignoring the head rush I got. Dahlia saw my face and rushed over. “Girl, you sure you’re okay? Maybe we should take you to the doctor or something?” She frowned and gave her best friend the look only a best friend can give. I laughed it off.
“I am fine. And if y’all don’t get a move on, I’ll leave y’all in the dust!” Dahlia laughed and held out her hand and we ran to the car. Adam yelled something incoherent as we started her up. The radio was blasting and our favorite Lady GaGa song was playing, “Just Dance”. And so the karaoke began.
Chapter 3 August 21, 2014 The doctor was checking my pulse; I must have gone out again. All of the people were gone…oddly enough it was comforting.
Chapter One Sweetheart, 15, 2014 December
I wrote in my journal when I realized I had fallen in love with you, my boyfriend. Now, I know what you’re thinking, seriously? That’s so sweet, but isn’t that a little cheesy? Yeah. It is. That’s how I am. And as you know, I write what I feel. I never let my words lie. That was about 2 months before the accident that changed all of our lives. Two months…it seemed like a day, the time flew by when I was with you, no matter where we were, no matter what we were doing. I tried to tell you, but I couldn’t make the words come out. I didn’t know how you would take it, and I didn’t want to say it and then want to take it back. So, I shut my mouth and just had the most amazing summer I could have ever asked for. I wish I could see your face right now. I know I never let you read anything I wrote, and you never stopped asking. My poetry was mine, and my stories were mine, and the words that came out in little Times New Roman font…well, those words were mine. And everything that was mine was yours, but I guess I was always a little scared that you wouldn’t like my writing, or it would change your view of me. I'm sorry. I know it’s a little late for apologies, but I am going to apologize anyway. Sweetheart, I should have let you read every damn poem I wrote, every last line, every word, every break…I really am sorry. So, like I was saying. Two months, it sounds like a lot, but after everything, it feels like I blinked once and then there were flashing lights, and screaming sirens. That night changed everything…except the fact that I love you. I miss you, catch you on the flipside.
Love Always, Your Girl.
Chapter Two August 21, 2014 The bright lights hurt my eyes. I heard someone crying, but I didn’t know who it was, or why they were crying. I tried so hard to say something, but my throat hurt, and the words just wouldn’t come, I felt helpless, which was something I hated. Then, I heard my name, clear as a bell. “Destiny?” Someone grabbed my hand, and the light was so bright I could only make out a silhouette. They tightened their grip, yelled something about a doctor, and the darkness grabbed me and pulled me back. I opened my eyes, and saw flowers. Like, there were a lot of flowers. There were red flowers, purple flowers, blue flowers, green flowers, and that was just in my line of vision. It kind of made me scared to look around. “She’s awake!” I jumped, and forced myself to look around. There was about six or seven people in my room, and I knew…none of them. The woman closest to me smiled and hugged me with tears in her eyes. “I’m sorry, but…who are you?” The words came out, I didn’t mean to say them, and instantly wished I hadn’t. I watched everyone in the room exchanges looks. You know what looks I’m talking about, the look that people give each other right in front of someone like they can’t see or something. Talk about aggravating, who did these people think they were? The woman who had hugged me looked so sad. “You don’t know who we are?” She asked it like there was some chance I was messing with her. “I’m sorry…should I?” I looked from her to each person, who was now standing awkwardly; looking at each other, silently asking what to do.
“Sweetie, what is the last thing you remember?” Her eyes; which were a pure crystalline blue, were filled with tears. I really didn’t want this lady to cry, but what could I do? I thought about her question, and realized I didn’t know how to answer. What was the last thing I remembered?
August 11, 2014 “Bombs away!” Jake yelled and jumped off the cliff into the freezing cold spring that had become the gang’s private hangout for the summer. I laughed and squealed as water crashed over my head. “You’re crazy!” My best friend Dahlia tried to scramble away as her boyfriend of six months, Adam, reached for her ankles. “Hey babe?” Jake was standing on a rock in front of me with his hand extended. “No way. I told you, no water. Nope, not happening.” I firmly pushed his hand away. It was way too cold, and…let’s face it, I was way too scared to jump like him and Adam did. “Babe! Please, please jump with me. I promise, it’ll be fun. Pleasseeee?” Jake put on his pouty face which he knew I couldn’t turn down and pulled me up into a tight embrace. “Pretty please? For me?” He was whining and we both knew he would get his way. I laughed and pushed him away feebly. “Fine…but not too high…like, that rock over there.” I pointed and gave him a little kiss on the cheek. He laughed and pulled me up the little ledge and onto the rock. Standing up there, I didn’t even want to think about jumping. Jake put his hands on my hips and whispered in my ear. “Remember, I'm right here.” “I know.” I was shaking, but I took a deep breath, Jake took a step back, and we jumped. The feeling was like, falling, but it felt good, it really did. When we hit the water I couldn’t think. The pressure was so unexpected and it was so COLD. I couldn’t pull myself up; I panicked and sucked in, and promptly choked on water. Suddenly I was being pulled to the surface, and when my head was above the surface I choked and sputtered.
“Babe, are you okay?” Jake sounded kind of frantic. “I'm…fine…just…get…me….out.” I managed to choke out. Jake pulled me up to shore and I tried to get the last of the water out of my lungs. “Oh my god Jake, what are you trying to do, kill her?” Dahlia was practically hysterical, pushing him out of the way, “Des, are you okay? My god, please be okay, we’re going to New Jersey next weekend!” I had to laugh, Dahlia is such a character, no one I know could ever replace her, and of course she was thinking of our trip to New Jersey. “I'm fine. Jesus, okay so never doing that again- ever.” I pushed myself to a sitting position and looked up at the three pairs of concerned eyes. “Adam, are you crying? Aw, you big softie!” “Shut up Des, you scared the shit out of me.” He turned red, and Dahlia was laughing at him. “See, he has a heart, you just have to pretend to die to get him to give any emotion.” She laughed and poked him playfully. The only one who wasn’t laughing, I noticed, was Jake. He was staring at me, with a look I couldn’t quite place. “Hey babe, are you okay?” I tried to keep my voice light. He just kept looking at me. “Sweetie?” “Um, yeah. Are you okay? I'm fine. I didn’t just almost drown…I'm so sorry Des, I shouldn’t have made you jump with me, I'm really sorry.” He sounded so sad, it made my heart hurt. “No biggie, I'm fine. Really, let’s go get some lunch or something, you know, away from water.” I smiled to let him know I was fine, and I saw him force a smile and nod. “Yeah, okay. Let’s get some food!” Him and Adam bumped fists and Dahlia jumped up to grab the towels. I sat where I was, still reeling. Looking up I saw Jake looking at me with a concerned look on his face, again I smiled to let him know I was okay. I stood slowly ignoring the head rush I got. Dahlia saw my face and rushed over. “Girl, you sure you’re okay? Maybe we should take you to the doctor or something?” She frowned and gave her best friend the look only a best friend can give. I laughed it off.
“I am fine. And if y’all don’t get a move on, I’ll leave y’all in the dust!” Dahlia laughed and held out her hand and we ran to the car. Adam yelled something incoherent as we started her up. The radio was blasting and our favorite Lady GaGa song was playing, “Just Dance”. And so the karaoke began.
Chapter 3 August 21, 2014 The doctor was checking my pulse; I must have gone out again. All of the people were gone…oddly enough it was comforting.
