My life
Content
POEMA DE LA DESPEDIDA
Te digo adiós, y acaso te quiero todavía.
Quizá no he de olvidarte, pero te digo adiós.
No sé si me quisiste... No sé si te quería...
O tal vez nos quisimos demasiado los dos.
Este cariño triste, y apasionado, y loco,
me lo sembré en el alma para quererte a ti.
No sé si te amé mucho... no sé si te amé poco;
pero sí sé que nunca volveré a amar así.
Me queda tu sonrisa dormida en mi recuerdo,
y el corazón me dice que no te olvidaré;
pero, al quedarme solo, sabiendo que te pierdo,
tal vez empiezo a amarte como jamás te amé.
Te digo adiós, y acaso, con esta despedida,
mi más hermoso sueño muere dentro de mí...
Pero te digo adiós, para toda la vida,
aunque toda la vida siga pensando en ti.
José Ángel Buesa
My life
My life is just a black whole
Where good things go bad,
Bad things go worse,
And worse things go scary.
No one cares about me and my life is worthless.
Everyday is like a never ending hell
But with no light and not a flame.
I wish I could go to hell
Just to end my sorry life
Were I'll be condemed to fire
So i would never speak again.
Suffering has been my life unbenounced to me.
It has and always will be.
No one understands me like I do......
No one ever should
For I am just a speck in the univers,
Who's death would be insignifent.
And would be instantly forgotten.
Is this the last time?
Is this the last time, I could be with you?
Is this the last time, I could see you?
Is this the last time, I could feel you?
Is this the last time, I could hear you?
Is this the last time,
I have to tell you how much I love you,
And how much I need you?
Goodbye's are so hard.
Hello's are even harder.
I dont know if can stand it any longer.
Please dont leave me.
Please tell me this isnt the last time.
This cant be the last time.
There's so many words that was left unspoken.
So many things I could have done to show you how much I need you.
So many breaths I had to take with out you.
And now there will be many more.
I wont be able to live on.
Last time saying goodbye to the sun and hello to the moon.
Because being under the moon and stars have no meaning anymore.
Because your not there to make it all have purpose.
And without you I have no purpose.
Now I see this is the last time.
Is it easier?
Is it easier not to be with you anymore?
Is it easier to forget you exist?
Is it easier to erase you from my life like a mistake that shouldnt have been?
Is it easier to just leave you alone?
Is it easier to move on?
Is it easier to find someone else to replace you all along?
NO! ! !
Its hard not to be with you
Everywaking moment of the day.
Its impossible to forget you exist,
With you always in my head.
I cant leave you alone.
I wish we didnt have to be apart.
I cant ever move on when your the one i love.
And i will never replace you.
Your too perfect and unique.
I just want you.
How?
How long have we've been apart?
Was it much time at all?
How deep did we get into this mess?
Should we have gone in at all?
How many times did you say you loved me?
Did you mean it?
Or am I wrong?
How did'nt we see that it couldnt work?
Was their somthing i did wrong?
How can you tell me its better if were apart?
How do you not see the pain you've caused me?
Please tell me how?
HOW? ! ?
Forced Love is not Healthy
How do you want me to feel?
Do you want me to be happy?
Do you want me to feel bad?
Do you want me to feel guilty?
You cant make me see things your way.
No matter how many times you try to tell me you changed,
No matter how many times you want me try to love you,
I know you only think that if you change I will come back,
You cant make me like you.
I have to admit I care for you.
But I cant go out with you.
Its wrong for me to go out with you always thinking about him.
Thing I do to make other people happy just tear me apart.
I only went out with you to make you happy.
Its time for me to fallow my heart.
Its time to do somthing for me.
To make me happy.
Its time for us to say goodbye.
So bye.
Empty.
Im just an empty corpse wandering this krupt patetic escuse for a planet earth.
I want no future here.
But I have no other choice.
I dont want to grow up a lie and live like nothings wrong when everything is.
My life was over before it started.
I regret being born.
I wish my mom never had me.
I've ruined people's lives just by my existance.
I dont believe in god. If thier is a god this must be hell.
We people are so stupide and oblivious that we kill ourselfs slowely everyday and dont even realize
it and when we do or are told we countinue to do so anyways.
I wish I can just burn it all.
Burn all the human race and watch it all fall untillthere is nothing but ashes and then fall into the
remaining flames myself.
Dieing slowly but painfuly.
But I cant so I'm damned here on this idiotic planet lifeless and empty.
Come and Go
Suddenly I couldnt feel the warmth of your arms holding me anymore.
I painicked.
I felt the cold crule wind of the real world blowing me awway from you.
I reached out but it was to late.
I was alone in the dark,
Surounded by reality.
I knew you were gone for good.
My life was hard enouph as it was,
And now without you holding me up and pushing me on there was no use trying anymore.
I gave up.
Spiriling downward.
Falling in a never ending hole to the depths of reality.
Life had no meaning anymore.
I had nothing to hold onto.
No reason to try.
But in the distance I seen a small speck of light,
In the dark that surounded me,
And I felt your warm arms holding me up once more pushing me on.
Giving me reason to live and try to enjoy another day,
Using you as my own personal crutch to help me along the way.
Starstruck and Hopeless
NOVEMBER 10, 2012
Where do stars go when they die?
I watched one burst and ignite the sky
I felt the warmth leave me behind
In cold and dark and endless time
We both held hands as the light left our world
A starstruck boy and a hopeless girl
Standing alone in the void that was forged
We closed our eyes and began to move forward
We don’t need light to know what’s ahead
We follow our hearts and ignore our heads
Our steps are small, and our journey long
But together we’ll make it, together we’re strong
Do you believe if we stare into each others eyes
Eventually we’ll see the rest of our lives
Playing out like some elaborate scheme
As if God meant for you to be with me?
I won’t leave
If you want me to stay
It was our hearts
That made us this way
We gave up the fight
Now we must pay the cost
Forever together
Til one heart is lost
You sleep in my arms
I creep in your heart
And make my bed there
So we’re never apart
Te digo adiós, y acaso te quiero todavía.
Quizá no he de olvidarte, pero te digo adiós.
No sé si me quisiste... No sé si te quería...
O tal vez nos quisimos demasiado los dos.
Este cariño triste, y apasionado, y loco,
me lo sembré en el alma para quererte a ti.
No sé si te amé mucho... no sé si te amé poco;
pero sí sé que nunca volveré a amar así.
Me queda tu sonrisa dormida en mi recuerdo,
y el corazón me dice que no te olvidaré;
pero, al quedarme solo, sabiendo que te pierdo,
tal vez empiezo a amarte como jamás te amé.
Te digo adiós, y acaso, con esta despedida,
mi más hermoso sueño muere dentro de mí...
Pero te digo adiós, para toda la vida,
aunque toda la vida siga pensando en ti.
José Ángel Buesa
My life
My life is just a black whole
Where good things go bad,
Bad things go worse,
And worse things go scary.
No one cares about me and my life is worthless.
Everyday is like a never ending hell
But with no light and not a flame.
I wish I could go to hell
Just to end my sorry life
Were I'll be condemed to fire
So i would never speak again.
Suffering has been my life unbenounced to me.
It has and always will be.
No one understands me like I do......
No one ever should
For I am just a speck in the univers,
Who's death would be insignifent.
And would be instantly forgotten.
Is this the last time?
Is this the last time, I could be with you?
Is this the last time, I could see you?
Is this the last time, I could feel you?
Is this the last time, I could hear you?
Is this the last time,
I have to tell you how much I love you,
And how much I need you?
Goodbye's are so hard.
Hello's are even harder.
I dont know if can stand it any longer.
Please dont leave me.
Please tell me this isnt the last time.
This cant be the last time.
There's so many words that was left unspoken.
So many things I could have done to show you how much I need you.
So many breaths I had to take with out you.
And now there will be many more.
I wont be able to live on.
Last time saying goodbye to the sun and hello to the moon.
Because being under the moon and stars have no meaning anymore.
Because your not there to make it all have purpose.
And without you I have no purpose.
Now I see this is the last time.
Is it easier?
Is it easier not to be with you anymore?
Is it easier to forget you exist?
Is it easier to erase you from my life like a mistake that shouldnt have been?
Is it easier to just leave you alone?
Is it easier to move on?
Is it easier to find someone else to replace you all along?
NO! ! !
Its hard not to be with you
Everywaking moment of the day.
Its impossible to forget you exist,
With you always in my head.
I cant leave you alone.
I wish we didnt have to be apart.
I cant ever move on when your the one i love.
And i will never replace you.
Your too perfect and unique.
I just want you.
How?
How long have we've been apart?
Was it much time at all?
How deep did we get into this mess?
Should we have gone in at all?
How many times did you say you loved me?
Did you mean it?
Or am I wrong?
How did'nt we see that it couldnt work?
Was their somthing i did wrong?
How can you tell me its better if were apart?
How do you not see the pain you've caused me?
Please tell me how?
HOW? ! ?
Forced Love is not Healthy
How do you want me to feel?
Do you want me to be happy?
Do you want me to feel bad?
Do you want me to feel guilty?
You cant make me see things your way.
No matter how many times you try to tell me you changed,
No matter how many times you want me try to love you,
I know you only think that if you change I will come back,
You cant make me like you.
I have to admit I care for you.
But I cant go out with you.
Its wrong for me to go out with you always thinking about him.
Thing I do to make other people happy just tear me apart.
I only went out with you to make you happy.
Its time for me to fallow my heart.
Its time to do somthing for me.
To make me happy.
Its time for us to say goodbye.
So bye.
Empty.
Im just an empty corpse wandering this krupt patetic escuse for a planet earth.
I want no future here.
But I have no other choice.
I dont want to grow up a lie and live like nothings wrong when everything is.
My life was over before it started.
I regret being born.
I wish my mom never had me.
I've ruined people's lives just by my existance.
I dont believe in god. If thier is a god this must be hell.
We people are so stupide and oblivious that we kill ourselfs slowely everyday and dont even realize
it and when we do or are told we countinue to do so anyways.
I wish I can just burn it all.
Burn all the human race and watch it all fall untillthere is nothing but ashes and then fall into the
remaining flames myself.
Dieing slowly but painfuly.
But I cant so I'm damned here on this idiotic planet lifeless and empty.
Come and Go
Suddenly I couldnt feel the warmth of your arms holding me anymore.
I painicked.
I felt the cold crule wind of the real world blowing me awway from you.
I reached out but it was to late.
I was alone in the dark,
Surounded by reality.
I knew you were gone for good.
My life was hard enouph as it was,
And now without you holding me up and pushing me on there was no use trying anymore.
I gave up.
Spiriling downward.
Falling in a never ending hole to the depths of reality.
Life had no meaning anymore.
I had nothing to hold onto.
No reason to try.
But in the distance I seen a small speck of light,
In the dark that surounded me,
And I felt your warm arms holding me up once more pushing me on.
Giving me reason to live and try to enjoy another day,
Using you as my own personal crutch to help me along the way.
Starstruck and Hopeless
NOVEMBER 10, 2012
Where do stars go when they die?
I watched one burst and ignite the sky
I felt the warmth leave me behind
In cold and dark and endless time
We both held hands as the light left our world
A starstruck boy and a hopeless girl
Standing alone in the void that was forged
We closed our eyes and began to move forward
We don’t need light to know what’s ahead
We follow our hearts and ignore our heads
Our steps are small, and our journey long
But together we’ll make it, together we’re strong
Do you believe if we stare into each others eyes
Eventually we’ll see the rest of our lives
Playing out like some elaborate scheme
As if God meant for you to be with me?
I won’t leave
If you want me to stay
It was our hearts
That made us this way
We gave up the fight
Now we must pay the cost
Forever together
Til one heart is lost
You sleep in my arms
I creep in your heart
And make my bed there
So we’re never apart
