Raped!!! (releasing my screams)

RAPED!!!(Releasing my screams) The feelings of loneliness drag me down Always wearing a mask, the face of a clown, The depression is showing its ugly face Alone in the dark, I am in the race. My moods are dark with daunting future The wounds are open, no time to suture, Why do I need to feel this pain? Why do I need to share the blame? Why does it all come down just to me? Why can’t they see my agony?. I’d just like to be happy, no games involved I’d like to be Mother as in the days of old I want to feel human and be loved as such I want to be held, wanted and touched, The RAPE, vulgarity and violation! The filth I am, the contamination! The mind of a mother who cannot share The strength required, their innocence spared, My heads awash with pain and hatred For the person I am so violated, I want that dirty little girl from deep inside To feel cleansed and protected, not thrown aside, I remember it clearly, useless and unworthy Dirty and oozing with pain from my eyes Desperately trying to silence my cries He left his mark where no-one can see Oh why can’t they see what he’s still doing to me? Am I no good? Wicked and impure? He left me untrusting and insecure Just when I think I can release the scream Hope that I wake up to realise just a dream A living nightmare is what I behold No end to the torture he inflicted, untold (c)